Hello everyone! I’ve been pretty absent and detached for the past month because I’ve been struggling with a serious bout of depression. Because my boyfriend has a new work schedule that causes me to be alone Monday-Friday, 6AM-4PM, I’ve been very lonely and it started to get to me. I’m having an extremely difficult time finding a job that will hire me because of my health issues (detailed here and here.) It’s extremely hard to stay positive when you have no job, no money, no transportation, health issues, and few friends. I just want to thank anyone that’s supported me so far. I really appreciate everyone that’s given me any kind of positive response. I want to make it clear right now that I don’t give life updates in hopes that someone will send me money. In fact, I won’t accept it. The only reason I write life updates is to shatter the belief that every single lingerie blogger lives a perfect life. I think it’s important that we discuss our personal issues so that it cements the idea that we’re just average everyday women that just happen to like bras.
My boyfriend has been helping me pay my expenses (insurance, cell phone, etc.), and unfortunately that doesn’t leave me any money to buy lingerie to review on my blog. The things I do have to review sit untouched because my self esteem is so shot right now that taking pictures of myself in any capacity is an emotionally draining experience that can trigger some body image issues from my past. I’m trying to rely less on blog samples because I know there’s a lot of stigma surrounding blogs that seem to only review things they received for free. The plus size/full bust shopping experience isn’t very good where I live, so it’s been a challenge to even find places that sell clothing I feel comfortable reviewing.
One thing I do want to do is branch out and start reviewing other things besides bras. I want to start reviewing swimwear (especially since summer is approaching fast), clothing, fashion related accessories, and anything else I find relevant. I feel like it won’t be as hard on my self esteem if I’m not always reviewing nothing but bras. Of course, I’ll still review lingerie when it’s possible for me to do so. My main focus on this blog will always be on lingerie regardless of what other items I review.
I’m also considering starting a separate blog that deals with my interests that don’t involve lingerie or clothing. Things like beauty reviews, recipes, tutorials, and things like that. I feel like it’ll make me happy to have another outlet for my other interests. I’ll be honest and say that blogging about lingerie and clothing isn’t always the most comfortable thing to do when you struggle with self esteem issues.
While I’d love to be idealistic and say that it always makes me feel good to empower myself and educate other people, it’s not always like that. I can’t see myself stopping this blog any time soon, but I feel like it would be good for both me and my readers if I spent less time on this blog until I can get a new job. There’s so many things I’d love to review but I don’t have the resources to do so. It gets really depressing seeing all the new collections come out when you can’t afford to try them out.
I appreciate your patience.
Just so that we’re all on the same page, I do have a few reviews and posts I’m working on now. I figured it would be good for me to let everyone know what to expect in the near future
Lady Voluptuous Vintage Summer Rose Verena Dress Review
Strap Saver Review
Gemm LG900 Bra Review and Alterations
Bravissimo Alana Follow Up
Glamory Hosiery 50352 Glamory Mesh Fishnet Thigh Highs Review
Torrid Swimwear and Clothing Try On
Land’s End Swimwear and Dress Try On
Sear’s Swimwear Try On
(probably more Try Ons when I can get out to more stores and try a whole bunch of things on)
If you have any suggestions, feel free to contact me at RollsAndCurvesEmail@gmail.com